I may have been living since (almost) 18 years ago, but I certainly never been a good passer of any moment. Oh my, I was such being inside boundaries of unstable mood when any period of excitements and worries (and trends) appeared publicly.
It was time when everyone had cell phone, on elementary school period. Well, I didn’t
It was time when everyone talked about parents’ cars, on elementary school period. Well, I didn’t know my parents even did not (and do not) have car.
It was time when everyone met new friends on bimbingan belajar, in last year of any school period. Well, I didn’t take any (I am between proud and envy of the friendship).
It was time when everyone started to upload any digital photos site, because they had cell phone with camera. Well, I didn’t
It was time when everyone rode motorcycle. I didn’t (again)
It was time when everyone had boyfriend. I had one. Well it means I was trying to follow the public excitement! But well again, I such didn’t really into that.
It was time when everyone addicted to something. I didn’t!!!
It was time when everyone straightening their hair. Well, I have it already
It was time when some people curling their hair. I was not!
It was time when people went designing. I did it!
And finally, the latest public excitement happens……
It is time when people altering to blackberry, dslr, macbook, braces, flat shoe, one hand bag. I don’t!
I didn’t ignore and pretend such I am hippies, in some case I admitted I was in jealousy. But some other case, I just didn’t really into that. I am sure, those all have ever made me in a trap of mind “I’M NOTHING BECAUSE I CAN’T AFFORD THOSE ALL”. I was like unable to be the friends of anyone, because I did not have even one of the public excitements!
But anyway, all have gone. The last maybe will stay longer as public excitements, and I will again sometimes in the trap. But time goes, doesn’t it? It is just my temporary feeling and it is just temporary excitement, later those will be nothing and the greater or odder things will appear. I don’t really follow those all, my environment leads me to make it just a show that we can see then take the gist.